Have you ever wondered the life of a RJ?? They are always so live n fresh on air; is it their realy self or are they pretending to wear a mask and making people lauguh over their silly statements???
I just realised that most people pretend to be what they are not. They just behave what they are not. It hurts a lot for being a part of this dirty game. I can never pretend to be happy coz whatever my mood is, it shows off in my face (n thats a bad quality). I can always be my true self, i cant pretend and cheat people like how i was being cheated my whole 21years through different people.
Listening to songs and just walking around made em think about relations again. I still accept the fact that i hate relationships but i somehow got entangled a year ago and still going on HILLS-Up-and-Down!!
I feel scared from inside if i will loose them. I would feel so alone again. I would be so shattered. It took me a year to wrap myself off from my y-trauma and again i will have to go through x-trauma. I am scared deep down. But then, if this relation was tru, then it would never break up!
The actual game is going to start....let me keep my fingers crossed!!
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