gone with the AIR...

26th August 2009 - I have officially resigned from my work place, SCHUCO....i had this main reason to resign bcoz of the same person who kept haunting me day and night.
I feel relaxed about not getting in touch by any means but also worried about hunting a new job at this recession period...will i be successful??

Today,all my dreams have been shattered....i stay alone.

And with this, i end my blog too.

Thanks for all ur reads n concern.

Goodbye.

Shiran Bhasi

dead fish.

its saturday again, the weekend is ending and so is my 1 week of air. No one has noticed that its been 1 week now...no1 knows anything about me, no1 really cares, no1.....its such a pretending world, people pretend, they deceive, they cheat you in every moves. They know how to play the games well. Or is it i am silly that i xpect people to know those important moments of my success in ma life??!!

Its been a week last evening that i ended n closed the doors forever, wanted to change all, blocked, deleted, n ended but now i feel i been dumb. We dont have ny common friend to solve our issues. No, we do have bt they are too busy with their lives. feels dead like a fish.

Listening to "Its ok, its allright" just to make myself feel i did it right.

illetrately not strong.

shiran

Its thursday aagian, mornig has jsut started, pretending to work in the office by cheking out the what-to-do-luxuary-things for the weekend. I have'nt really thoguht about how fortunate i have been in these 21years. i have read an article that the world is going to end in 2012, funny!! Our time is going to end soo and there is so much to do....

Having a conversation with the store-keeper at workplace has made me write this blog entry. He asked me about my education cost, other expenses etc. My expenses and my living was quite too high according to him. He told me about his unfortunate story of starting work at an early age of 11years as a construction worker carrying 40kgs of cement.Due to his hardship at home, he had to quit his education. he wanted to complete his studies and yet he hasnt finished his grade 12th being 33years of age now. He also worked as a delivery boy for a courier company when he came to UAE and had to walk miles from emirates to emirates to deliver post. He had gone through many hardships and today he has a bitter good work at Schuco and is a also a husband. He said, life was so pathetic then, wanting to study yet no one was there to support him.He had to struggle his life to make a living. He adviced that i should appreciate and thank God for being blessed to have parents and siblings who are supportive at all times.

Some people are so not fortunate to get the basics in life yet they learn how to live their life through hardships and courage to be a winner one day. But people like me, have become so arrogant and ego-istic about things that i have and tend to see things as un-noticable. I admit the mistakes i have made has only made people close to me hurt more.And i used to hurt them for my simple-silly- idiotic-selfish nature. I feel so miserbale now.

Felix, the storekeeper, has now enrolled for graduation this year and will be passed out from school. And he can go ahead with his college education at this age. I appreciate how he feels now, and how he has maintained the dreams of educating himself even after many failures in life. He has never given up and i love this quality in him.

I am not going to forget the story of Felix and shall be thankful for all the fortunate things i have in my life.

God bless you.

Shiran

i like this...

Another post on the same day...jus found this from some site...wanted to make it mine!!


"Don’t cry for her, don’t cry for yourself,
cry for that hole in yourself that you let eat away at your soul,
cry for that part of yourself you won’t fill back up,
cry not because you want to, but because you can.

And after all that is done, and the tears you give are no more, remember to smile not because you ought to, or because you shouldn’t be sad,


..but because you can."


This byte is inspiring n yet i cant stop the rain in me....i want sum1 to rescue me. Looking forward for my next heart-breaker!

It has been so used that i need to check our photo album to remind me that u are [were] a part of me. Have i forgotten you or am i just pretending i did? We spoke for a credit balance of 4dhs from 7dhs yesterday evening. I so couldn'nt understand your talks, it was strange.

I have joined the gym from yesterday, mainly
a) to burn fat
b)to burn you out of my mind and
c)to burn u forever.
This actually did work with my ex. I exercised, relaxed and forgot evrything. Funny how it is but it did help. And so, i do the same to you. I will burn you completely out of my mind and soul.

People should be thinking that i have experience of loosing and forgetting people. Frankly, i do not have the courage to take the pain again. hence, i am not gonna trust anyone blindly anymore.

Oh, i dont need to think about histroy anymore, right? lol...Its thursday again, working lazy at office n waiting for the weekend. Not much planned for the holidays but have to do something. Luckily, the gym would allow me to waste some time rather sittting online n checking stuffs.

Thats all for today!!

God Bless
Shiran

STOP.Halt.

i feel i am running away from myself. I am not being able to be what i have to be. Lots of concentration and will power is required to change and i need it soon. Otherwise, my growing headache would make me insane.

Finally, i am almost done with uni life. Dissertation has to be submitted and then graduation in November n OVER with this life.

21years has been ruined of mine so far and i have not reached anywhere. Still an unsuccessful person in life. Totally, life suxs. All relationships are fake, they just need money. Bdw, a new thing i found out or rather a new lesson i learnt, people all are money minded. The more the money a person has, the other person switches to them; however close you were. Afterall, money can make anyone go mad. Money has always created trouble in my life and even today a relation has broken for the same reason.

Freaking out but Staying cool.

Shiran

A world of lies.

I hate lies and yet my life has been a lie to the world now.

mixing the tape.

as i have started to re-live my past dead 2years, i might be blogging every weekends.

Yesterday, i had one fo the best days. It was best coz i spoke a lot like a chatter-box that i used to be during the school days. I was out with my school friends. Bdw, my nick names during those days were chatter-box, anti-indian, world bank.....blah blah....hell fun were those days but i tend not to remember them.

My day started off at 8am and took dad for monthly check-ups to the hospital. I dropped him and then went to my sisters place. I was missing my niece n so i woke her up from her sleep and kidnapped her from home. Later, we picked dad from the hospital and reached back to my home at 10.30. As i promised to meet my school friends, i took a chick-shower n rushed. As usual, i was late!!!

Never mind, we drove our ways to Dubai Mall. This was the 4th time being there. We also had a send-off party for boney and also 30seconds of depression moments to prove that we would miss his :P We also snapped many snaps.

Left the mall by 4.45 and reached sharjah at 5.20. Juggy invited us to his home. Surprisingly, his bro's red bmw was all set to welcome me :P i simbli love that car!! I wish his brother would adopt me someday!!

Reached home at 6.15 and then i had to take my parents shopping....i hate this part but then it was fun being with them after long time. I spoke to mum a lot yesterday and it was good !! We had dinner from a restaurant and finally back home at 9.30.

My hyperness was still staying fresh and alive.

bdw....i need to do one last thing, just one final thing. I need to go to the lagoons again coz they know what i have been through and hopefully i can go today(if i get the time).

July 4th has just started for me. My appointments have been fixed already.

Being busy to freeeze myself.

God bless
Shiran

revised revisions.

this revised life is so so so warm n peaceful. I can feel those walk downs that i had some years ago. Like a child just enjoying the warmth of the sun and relaxing to the tunes of the world.

I feel so so better by not treating you special. I have made you a normal person in my life. And this is the best part.

I still dont understand: why do people we respect the most dont even value us?? This is a question prolly that even the scientist cant even answer.

Last evening, after getting back home from uni, i gave a huge grin to mum and she started laughing. I know its been ages i did that and this made her smile. She thought i had some surprise waiting for her but then she should realise that i am changing again. Usually, i put on my real smile only during special occasions and this could be the reason for her schock in seeing me grin.

And its friday again, i so wanted to have this weekend but i am getting busy. Have to take dad to the doctor and then meet with my school friends at dubai mall. Evening, i should work on my project. toooo much to do....lol

Weekend magazine talks about my luck for this week in the horoscope coloummn. Its funny and strange.

God bless
Shiran

moments of depth

its been too much of being emo and sadness flowing in the last 5 months of my petite life....i wanna give a halt to all this and finally, damn, finally i have made up my mind.

i kno i had taken this decision to quit few months ago too but this time i am serious. I miss the feeling of being with people, running along the stream of water they float in. I am gonna float the way i want but also considering the way it has to be.

I am not gonna make a move to make any1 special for me. And i am gonna make many friends, gonna socialise and play some games. And definitely, start exercising so that i get some piece of mind.

And yes, i am not gonna complaint of those, that were'nt mine coz i have realised that u were nothing to me and i been too good to you n ya never deserved it. Hence, i quit this game and i am gonna enjoi the world now.

I have learned that one day we all have to get separated no matter what coz thats what the almighty too needs. He gave me you and i njoyed being with you. And now, if he wants to take you back from me, then this is my fate. A fate to cry or a fate to find some one new.

I am just gonna be me and will nevr get depressed over friends/family ppl anymore.

I wanna experience real life now.

Tune-ing to be ruff and tuff.

Shiran

silence.

everytime i see through you, it makes me wonder what i have done to myself. i have been so deeply cheated without my knowledge. I have been lying to myself everyday that i am fine, i can be fine and can get better, but i dont think this will work anymore.

Today, i been to the jumeirah beach side. A silent walk all myself leaving my other friends behind, feeling the depth of sand getting under the feet and hurting myself walking on top of the docks, slipping, tripping and falling....slowly punishing myself for the mistake i did.

The waves were beautiful, as peaceful as happiness flowing to deaf ears.

I truly wish i wanst betrayed, i pray every second for it. But, each time you are there or any memory of you, makes me wounded from inside.

I shouldnt have allowed you to get close to me.

Probably, thats a lesson i need to learn....after 21years of bad experience.

I will not allow anyone to get close to me again. I cant bare to part ways.

I know i hurt my other people in my life just for you...and this is what i get at the end. I dont wanna expext annything in return.

I have been a victim of being used again.

Firm and tuff.

ShirAn.

Realisation

Have you ever wondered the life of a RJ?? They are always so live n fresh on air; is it their realy self or are they pretending to wear a mask and making people lauguh over their silly statements???

I just realised that most people pretend to be what they are not. They just behave what they are not. It hurts a lot for being a part of this dirty game. I can never pretend to be happy coz whatever my mood is, it shows off in my face (n thats a bad quality). I can always be my true self, i cant pretend and cheat people like how i was being cheated my whole 21years through different people.

Listening to songs and just walking around made em think about relations again. I still accept the fact that i hate relationships but i somehow got entangled a year ago and still going on HILLS-Up-and-Down!!

I feel scared from inside if i will loose them. I would feel so alone again. I would be so shattered. It took me a year to wrap myself off from my y-trauma and again i will have to go through x-trauma. I am scared deep down. But then, if this relation was tru, then it would never break up!

The actual game is going to start....let me keep my fingers crossed!!

stuck on it again....

waking up at 8 on a saturday morning and trying to kill time is more like wasting million seconds in your life. And i know i been wasting my life thinking about my past, a day that i am still stuck at. Howmuch ever, we move onn that day is always in my mind and it will never fade away.

It was this person whoes eyes could be read so easily and I can still remember the eyes you had that time and how distressed you felt my presence in your life.

I still dont know if i had taken the right decision. Definitely, i have no rights to play with someones heart but what if that person wanted it to be that way??

This day has caused fire in our relationship and from then we never be ourselves, rather we pretend. Frankly, both of us are pretending to be good for each other and we have lost that special relation. I doubt if it will be back again.

My mind tells me always to forget and move on, if that persone doesnt want you, then u dont need to be with but at the same time this person says i am the dependent person!!

Last saturday, i helped my two gfs who had some ego issues. I would be a middleman between two fights coz we have no one to talk about and solve our issue.

But yeah, i know you are faithful to me and its just my mind that keeps wandering all through the past and makes me die inside again n again....

So confused, stuck again...trying to move on.

sadly dead..

i feel sad now and thats the reason of this blog just after my silly blog last night on relationships. there is something that is stopping me from not able to concentrate on studies, and i know very well what that reason is. Its psychological feeling of being alone. I was so dependent on someone and now i miss being with that person. All those old memories are coming as a flash in ma eyes. Those chats, uninvited meetings, hangouts, movies and the warmth of oneself is missing.

I feel its not the same anymore and we have had many arguments about issues bcoz of this. Its just not being what your are rather being what you used to be just to make the word "adjustment" valid.

I am missing the real person, or was i being with a person who was supposedly pretending to be someelse to gain something from me? I am going insane and madly hurt.

Past should always be history but another history became a present for me just an hour before. And this, hurts more. I actually avoided 'X' for 'Y' and now 'Y' is kinda avoiding me. At the end, i am left with no one, 'X' nor 'Y'. I hate this fact.

I should either change my way of thinking or else i should be numb for the next few years to overcome these issues.

Psychological problems can never help with consulting a psychatrist. It can only waste some money as consultation fees instead teh best solution is being with whom i wanna be can make me happy.

I just wish i could make my past with 'Y' happen again, aleast for once more.

sadly dead
shiran

its all about ReLationships.

21:34 June o5th, a peaceful silent evening is torturing my heart and mind a bit. Staying orphaned from early evening till now makes me feel nostalogic. Thinking about past and my dislike on relationships, i thought why not i write anything on relationships?! And here comes, ma blog on it.

We all tend to fall for someone or the other from a very young age. They name it infatuation, crush, the need to be with someone special. I have heard many people say, they love having a relationship but at the same time they would be the person complainig mostly of being in one. It could be they are so much in love n that they dunt wanna fall apart or else they are bored of each other and want to get a life out of hell!!! Either ways, relationships sucks.

A relationship does not always mean a bf-gf, bf-bf, gf-gf relation, but it also has some effect of friendship, parents, relatives, strangers.

Friendship is not a relationship, but it can be named as a 'bond'. You may love him/her but you dont actually be in love with him/her. Even this kinda relationship hurts a lot. Sometimes, we expect so much from one person and when they dont behave the same, things changes, glasses break and heart cries.

A relationship we maintain with parents, is never lasting. Either, it will end today or tomorrow. Nothing is certain in this mean world.

All relationships end. Finally, it will be only you alone crying for some one to be loved. Some goodbyes are unforgettable while some we tend to forget soon.

My formula for a relationship is love+hate+fight+breakup+collapse+solitary.

I am making up my mind again, not to trust anyone and not to care for anyone coz i dont want to be hurt again :(

anger..

my head is aching hard and eyes are swelling up that goes direct to my brain nerves and indirectly hurts my emotions. today, office was fun, was in the mood to work like a professional. I been doing many errors for the past week and today i completed off all my task. Probably because i got a new look n got some good comments from my direct managers...u c, i can get easily flattered when someone praises me and can get emotionally hurt when someone calls me a dark chocolate(i am brown, so what??!!!, huh...!)
College wasnt so amazing as our resluts for the quizes had been published today. I got really less grades. frankly, i have lost my concentration power and motivation skills to boost my energy to study.
Next week onwards, mid exams are commencing and i am not gonna allow myself to get less than 90 for all the 4 subjects...n i need it to happen through hard work.

There are just very few people who have the right to enter my heart and once they are in, they have the whole right to all my things. One person who indirectly owns me never makes use of me and finally he asked me for something..i was more than happy to do what he asked for but then he says he would return back the help in two days...!! is it that i aint expressive enough for them to read my mind or do i look coward??

my head is aching really bad now. i think its time to doze off and get ready for another day and then its weekend again!!!

sweet memories

Sunday, May 31, 23.01PM, rewinding my life exactly 2 years and 4 hours early, i became an uncle!!! haha...it wasnt that i didnt wanted to be an old man at the age of 19, but ....
2 years ago the same day, was filled with joys, hope, blessings and prayers. I still remember doing a fast shopping at Splash just for inviting the special angel to our family. And then, rushing onn with time, reaching the hospital in Ajman, and broooooo.....its a baby gIRL :)

days passed on, months flew fast and 2 yrs down the line, shreya, has become quite naughty, healthy and funny..i hate kids but not all kids :P

may i never have may again

27.05.2009 - Almost we are coming to an end of this month, 5 months of 2009 is history now and i havent done anything worthwhile so far. I only have cried and pretended myself to be happy at few times. Or probably, i was actually happy at some time.
"Truth is always bitter" - truth and lies plays major roles in evryones life's. Some live a life of lies while some neutral and some just truth. But i dont believe that all of us live a life of truth. To hide a truth, we need to lie to ourselves, a lie that can destroy your character, a lie that can throw sand on others. I am too living in a lie world-a world that i would never disclose to any human.
Switching topic, this month was full of celebrations. May 14th was ma rents 27th wedding anniversary, May 21 was dad's birthday, May 25 was my best mans 6yrs of love anniversary and finally coming up is may 31st, my niece 2nd birthday!!!!
bdw...i love my niece, she is a bit shyful these days but very naughty and a killer!!! :P
I feel guilty about not able to help my best man when he needs it. Actually, even i am cut short of money, i just have 50dhs and i can share that money with him but it would be enough. Just keeping my fingers crossed to get my pay this week!!!
This month, i had many expenses. Took a loan from dad of AED 760, loan from ma buddy of AED 100, i have to pay the car washer Aed 150. So almost my pay goes for paying off these expenses. Also, about my car, i need to get a thing fixed up, so another expense on the way!!!!
Life is a part of ups and downs, we need to face them, right??

Keeping fingers crossed

Shiran
10.27 AM

maybe i was wrong...

May 18, 9.55AM

My day had to start off bad. My car has a break down again and i had to wait for a taxi to reach office. though i reached office on time, i feel bad about having a car. I remeber those days, when i had my driving license but wasnt lucky to have a car. Probably, i had fought so much with my parents to get a car for me. Or problably, i wasnt worthy of having it and bought a car when i was supposed not to drive.
My car, honda civic, has always been unlucky for me. It has spoilt a good friendship with my hommie, "Mr.B"; created tension for mum, fights with family and many more. Having a car was more like a dream, a prestige issue. i wanted to have a car of my own so that the security guy at the college will raise his hands n greet me each time i get out and in of the college, it must be boosting my ego.
I accept the fact that i am built of 90% ego and this ego won't let off me soon. I have had many bad experience in life and this could be the reason for my attitude. I may change, i may try to become an extrovert but...
life has played a game for me. my introvert nature forces me not to make more than 1 close friend and this friend always has to leave me n go away when i am in need.
Last night, i gave a second thought about my relationships with people and most of them seem to be decisive; or it can be the way that i think about them which they might not be or else i can read and understand peoples mind and i would always like to stay away from this wicked world.
I been thinking about my old best buddy, Mr.S a lot these days. i still remember the first time i met him, in grade 8th, i hated him coz he was INDIAN!!! lol....its not that i hate indians, but this guy was exported frm india and he had that indian attitude and i hated that. But later, he changed, we kept rolling as classmates, friends and then there was a moment when both of us unintentionally went wrong and this led to our breakup. But mistakes will always be forgivem, right? and so he was back to me in grade 12th n we became thick friends from then. He shared all hsi issues with me and was being a good listener. And later, as my curse still goes on, he had to leave off to India for higher studies. We also lost contact but whenevr he was back to sharjah, he would buzz me and we would meet up atleast one day. But when he had left me solitared, i had made up my mind for not to make any people close to my life. A year passed by and yes, i just remained myself, a closed book, didnt give any chance of letting people come into my life. As i said, life always had played a game with me, and i had to make some1 close to me again.

I am just feeling a bit nostalogic about my friends and hommies; maybe i miss them and i dunt want to loose them.

Bdw...i want to write a list of memories, probably, for my next blog.

Tacke care.

Shie

days are moving very fast

16th may...16days now i wrote a blog.
so far my days were going just okay. loads of random thoughts.missing my old friends.memories of my old best hommie can never be forgotten.wish he was with me now at this moment of my life. sometimes, i miss him.
these 2 weeks were creating memories.met an old friend of college, monica. We went to world trade center for an exhibition called ATM. it was boring but we were happy to meet again. we had dinner together at 2 places on the same day!!!
It was my parents wedding anniversary, 27 years long thick durable one. i gifted mum a pearl with diamond earing and for dad a sapphire watch. I gifted it to them on their special day but never felt like it was special. many family issues.
y dont ppl just deal about their own lives??
nyways, to compensate that, we went to the temple on friday and i took my rents to dubai mall, one of the largest mall in the world. we also went for lunch. the food was good n filling as it was buffet. And on the same day, i met up with my 2 old school hommies, hameed and shaggy!!! we met at 3 for a movie, Angels and Demons. it was kinda OKAY muvie, i was sleepy too after having the huge lunch. The movie got over at 5 and then v headed to meet other friends. we met lionel, damn, he has changed so much!!! And then we went to ajman coz the guys wanted to have sheesha....:P
we then headed to burger king, the guys hogged steak burger...n thet started crying coz the taste of burger made them weep....these guys r funnily weird....i njoyed my time with them.

And today, 16th may, i lay clueless in my bed. Ma niece is making noise and showing off her screaming skills. Mum is bz on the fone with her bestie. And dad is bhind the servant askin him to clean up the place.!!!

i am kinda bored today. i want a change in my life. there is something that i feel is missing in my life. i need to find it out someday.

myself...

some times i wonder why do people come to ones life and then leave u alone so forever. why is it that they cant stick on with ya?? why do they loose contact once they r away from ya?? why does evrything that went so smooth dusnt happen anymore?? is it that relationships are meant to be that way? or is it that relationship shudnt have been alive? or is it with the people themselve who always lookout for changes??

i can nevr understand this concept coz i been going through this my whole life; trying to find an answer to who could be that One-n-Only who will stay with me forever...no..no..i am not looking/hunting for a life partner...but for me the most precious are those people whom i can respect and be a follower.

today, was a pretty bad day from the start. office/xam/college all boring.i think i was the reason who made things boring. people around me were so lively.

i wish i could wear a mask of happiness always and socialise with people pretending nothing is wrong. Probably nothing was wrong, but something should be wrong.

A world a fantasy can i never be out from..a dream of being a superhero..dreams will be dreams.always!!

a new day, a new month, time is running!!

May 01, 2009
Woow...a new day begun, a new month, its the 5th month of 2009...time is running of so fast and i have no idea where it will take me in 2010. The past 4 months was filled with happiness, moments, surprises, sadness, shock, loved, special and lonely.

my current mood is norMAL...hehe..i feel normal...woke up early *8.30* and was left alone coz my rents went shopping. I did wanted to stay alone for some time and relax..had a great shower disturbing my neighbors with my most melodious voice signing ragas...lol

i did take some snaps and for the first time i felt posing for pics is so hard and to lead a model's life wud be so hard...but that doesnt mean i wont work it out.

ppl can dream..and so i am dreaming to make it big one day in fashion industry with my popping tummy, man-holed face, wormy hair and ant eyes..but sometimes i feel ia m the BEST!!

yesterday, my sis celebrated her 4th wedding anniversary...congrats to the couples...they are still working on their relationship...frankly its so not possible by me coz i am never blessed to have some1 i love the most for not more than a year..so i have lost hope in building a long term relationship and thats one defect in me. when i loose that special some1 it just tears me apart. wish i can take a magic journey. a journey to the universe :)

sometimes i can also be a bomb shell...and i feel so dry..i wanna pamper myself.

i am not sure what all are waiting for me this month, but lets just hope for the best.

I need a change soon...a CHANGE!!!

even if I am ovER

every day leaves memories to evryones hearts/mind/soul. some might be gay and some will be devil. yesterday, april 23, 2009 was so not a day made for me. All excitement went wooosh.
I was pretty xcited to see my younger friends graduate. Wanted to spent quality time with them. But, my mood swings as always played the DEVIL.
We were at Uno grill for two reasonz: to meet mr.kamran and to eat good food. And again as my day had to suck, the food sucked nor did i meet mr.kamran(arfies crush boi).
The girls were in a hurry and so we had to rush out. Speeding our way to sharjah, ma car met with an accident with an Infinity!!! my poor car...i so feel he dusnt deserve me. i am gonna sell off that car and get something better.
I hate this country, UNited Arab Emirates. They are so racists.

i feel depressed :(

regret

i feel sad today.theres a huge hold in my heart.i stand so alone, lonely, the same situation i was 2 years ago. i feel isolated.
wish nuthing shud have happened but then fate plays a good role and someday i want to know my future and act accordingly.
i was blessed with the best person in my life, 'sid'.he had the best qualities that i had never seen in any other guy friends of mine. he slowly became my close friend and later a part of me holding complete rights to my life key.
And tragedy had to play devil between us as there is no happy ending.
they call it ego,attitude but i wud nevr open my true self to sum1 other than the person whom i trust. i only hurt my loved ones coz they hurt me.
And april 14, i shattered sid with my words. it hurt him very bad.and he has taken a decision to maintain distance wit me:(
i think i dunt deserve his friendship coz i am the one to be blamed.
i failed to understand him and i always fail to understand myself.

today, i feel so shattered and lost in the friendship battle the 2nd time in my life.

probably, there would be something more in stores for me but this battle wont heal off soon and i am not ready for any more relation-ships :(

i just wanna be forgiven.

Rainy day

March 29 Sunday, another start of the week with the same schedule for the next five days. It was not surprisingly raining and breezy weather. And for the first time, i drove my ride in heavy rain. It was fun driving safe.

Rain always bring memories to evryone. It may be good or bad. I have two most beautiful incidents connected with rain last year. They are the most beautiful memories i had with the person who is no more the same to me. It was raining and i had a fight with my friend. I got dropped home at 10.30 by another friend(i didnt have my license then) and he was waiting for me down my building. He bought falooda to eat, its a kind of sweet dish. We spoke sitting inside the car, eating falloda and finished off with our cat fight. And there was another incident, which i refuse to publicize :P

And yes, i remeber walking to school holding the umbrella on a rainy day. Childhood days, i dont remeber much of them but very few.

I reached office 15minutes late and as expected most staff reached late. The road was traffic and watery. Sitting in my seat, i can see the weather outside from the window. The rain has stopped now but the
weather looks awesum. I wish i can stay out in this weather and give some time to myself.

I ME and MYSELF

He is a boy.

He has 21years of life experience.

He studies at Skyline Uni.

He works for a MNC.

He is an independent person.

He loves photography.

He wants to learn swimming.

He wants to run away to an island.

He wishes to be lost in some forest and lead a tarzan life.

He had a taste of fashion designing.

He loves shopping for others.

He hates when clothes dont fit him.

He is addicted to perfumes.

He loves watches.

His favourite color is Brown and Black and Blue and Sea Green.

He hates politics.

He likes McDonalds and Pizza.

He loves driving.

He owns a Honda Civic.

He got 21 shirts and 2 t-shirts but only 4 trousers.

He wanna go for a concert.

He wants to do a make over.

He wish his life wouldnt get more better.

He wants to visit counties.

He likes India.

He hates relatives.

He loves chinese, thai, indian, arabic food.

He loves shakira and beyonce and rihana.

He thinks a lot.

He hates being played.

He hates for trusting someone and then loosing the hope.

He still hopes for the best.

He can sing and dance.

He wants to learn tango.

He wants to do dirty dance.

He has close friends.

He feels emo at times.

He becomes a fashion disaster too.

He can also be a bomb.

And he is SHIRAN, the name says it all.

So, they were just few facts about me and myself. I love being inddependent and wants to rent a pad. I want to change few things about me. I am what i am and sometimes i can change for someone.

I hate the fact that i deeply love myself.