gone with the AIR...

26th August 2009 - I have officially resigned from my work place, SCHUCO....i had this main reason to resign bcoz of the same person who kept haunting me day and night.
I feel relaxed about not getting in touch by any means but also worried about hunting a new job at this recession period...will i be successful??

Today,all my dreams have been shattered....i stay alone.

And with this, i end my blog too.

Thanks for all ur reads n concern.

Goodbye.

Shiran Bhasi

dead fish.

its saturday again, the weekend is ending and so is my 1 week of air. No one has noticed that its been 1 week now...no1 knows anything about me, no1 really cares, no1.....its such a pretending world, people pretend, they deceive, they cheat you in every moves. They know how to play the games well. Or is it i am silly that i xpect people to know those important moments of my success in ma life??!!

Its been a week last evening that i ended n closed the doors forever, wanted to change all, blocked, deleted, n ended but now i feel i been dumb. We dont have ny common friend to solve our issues. No, we do have bt they are too busy with their lives. feels dead like a fish.

Listening to "Its ok, its allright" just to make myself feel i did it right.

illetrately not strong.

shiran

Its thursday aagian, mornig has jsut started, pretending to work in the office by cheking out the what-to-do-luxuary-things for the weekend. I have'nt really thoguht about how fortunate i have been in these 21years. i have read an article that the world is going to end in 2012, funny!! Our time is going to end soo and there is so much to do....

Having a conversation with the store-keeper at workplace has made me write this blog entry. He asked me about my education cost, other expenses etc. My expenses and my living was quite too high according to him. He told me about his unfortunate story of starting work at an early age of 11years as a construction worker carrying 40kgs of cement.Due to his hardship at home, he had to quit his education. he wanted to complete his studies and yet he hasnt finished his grade 12th being 33years of age now. He also worked as a delivery boy for a courier company when he came to UAE and had to walk miles from emirates to emirates to deliver post. He had gone through many hardships and today he has a bitter good work at Schuco and is a also a husband. He said, life was so pathetic then, wanting to study yet no one was there to support him.He had to struggle his life to make a living. He adviced that i should appreciate and thank God for being blessed to have parents and siblings who are supportive at all times.

Some people are so not fortunate to get the basics in life yet they learn how to live their life through hardships and courage to be a winner one day. But people like me, have become so arrogant and ego-istic about things that i have and tend to see things as un-noticable. I admit the mistakes i have made has only made people close to me hurt more.And i used to hurt them for my simple-silly- idiotic-selfish nature. I feel so miserbale now.

Felix, the storekeeper, has now enrolled for graduation this year and will be passed out from school. And he can go ahead with his college education at this age. I appreciate how he feels now, and how he has maintained the dreams of educating himself even after many failures in life. He has never given up and i love this quality in him.

I am not going to forget the story of Felix and shall be thankful for all the fortunate things i have in my life.

God bless you.

Shiran

i like this...

Another post on the same day...jus found this from some site...wanted to make it mine!!


"Don’t cry for her, don’t cry for yourself,
cry for that hole in yourself that you let eat away at your soul,
cry for that part of yourself you won’t fill back up,
cry not because you want to, but because you can.

And after all that is done, and the tears you give are no more, remember to smile not because you ought to, or because you shouldn’t be sad,


..but because you can."


This byte is inspiring n yet i cant stop the rain in me....i want sum1 to rescue me. Looking forward for my next heart-breaker!

It has been so used that i need to check our photo album to remind me that u are [were] a part of me. Have i forgotten you or am i just pretending i did? We spoke for a credit balance of 4dhs from 7dhs yesterday evening. I so couldn'nt understand your talks, it was strange.

I have joined the gym from yesterday, mainly
a) to burn fat
b)to burn you out of my mind and
c)to burn u forever.
This actually did work with my ex. I exercised, relaxed and forgot evrything. Funny how it is but it did help. And so, i do the same to you. I will burn you completely out of my mind and soul.

People should be thinking that i have experience of loosing and forgetting people. Frankly, i do not have the courage to take the pain again. hence, i am not gonna trust anyone blindly anymore.

Oh, i dont need to think about histroy anymore, right? lol...Its thursday again, working lazy at office n waiting for the weekend. Not much planned for the holidays but have to do something. Luckily, the gym would allow me to waste some time rather sittting online n checking stuffs.

Thats all for today!!

God Bless
Shiran

STOP.Halt.

i feel i am running away from myself. I am not being able to be what i have to be. Lots of concentration and will power is required to change and i need it soon. Otherwise, my growing headache would make me insane.

Finally, i am almost done with uni life. Dissertation has to be submitted and then graduation in November n OVER with this life.

21years has been ruined of mine so far and i have not reached anywhere. Still an unsuccessful person in life. Totally, life suxs. All relationships are fake, they just need money. Bdw, a new thing i found out or rather a new lesson i learnt, people all are money minded. The more the money a person has, the other person switches to them; however close you were. Afterall, money can make anyone go mad. Money has always created trouble in my life and even today a relation has broken for the same reason.

Freaking out but Staying cool.

Shiran

A world of lies.

I hate lies and yet my life has been a lie to the world now.